Last February, when the Church Council approved my six-week
long Spiritual Renewal Leave, I felt an immediate sense of relief. Just knowing
that this mini-sabbatical was on the horizon was enough to give a little boost
to my soul.
And now that leave is done and I’m back in the office,
feeling rested, renewed, and grateful. I am so thankful to have a District
Superintendent who insisted that I take some time away. I am thankful for
congregational leaders who “get it” and gave me this time with their blessing.
And I am inexpressibly thankful for a church staff that is so good at what they
do that I didn’t have to worry about spending six weeks out of the loop.
So to everyone who made the last six weeks possible, “Thank
you. I am deeply, deeply grateful.”
What did I do? Well, I rested. I spent time with my family.
And I wrote.
The visible products of these six weeks are a book outline
and the book’s first two chapters. I decided to write about what I have learned
about following Jesus from being a foster dad. I hope to keep working and maybe
have the book done by the end of this year.
The invisible product of these six weeks are a mind and
heart that have been rested and renewed. I spent time with my family. I spent
time alone. I camped. I read books. I floated down a river in a canoe with a
dear friend. I skipped stones. I walked in the woods. I prayed. I thought about
stuff. And the accumulative effect of this time away has been a tangible
lightening of my spirit.
Walter Brueggemann introduced me to the idea of “the gods of
insatiable productivity” in his book Sabbath as Resistance. Put in theological
perspective, my Spiritual Renewal Leave vanquished the “gods of insatiable
productivity” as I became reaquainted with the living God who builds sabbath
rest into the act of creation itself.
It was good to be away - And now it is good to be back.
PART 2: Worship
I worshiped in five different churches during my leave. Some
very different places: a big, established, traditional church; a “second site”
location; a relatively new, contemporary congregation; a larger than large
high-tech extravaganza experience; and a small, urban, guitar and piano, worshiping
community ministry center.
And I learned something in these five worship experiences. But
… I’m not sure if I really want to tell you what it was. See, it’s kind of
heretical. If you only skim this post, you may misunderstand my point.
So I’m trusting you not to just skim this, but to really
understand what I’m trying to say here. Okay? Deal? Then here it is:
Worship is ridiculous.
That’s about it, then. Somewhere in these last six weeks, I
realized that the act of worship is the most ridiculous thing people do. Yes,
that’s what I mean - “Deserving of or inviting mockery or derision.” And if
your worship isn’t ridiculous, well then maybe it should be.
How would a worship service invite derision? A group of
people shows up at a given time at a given place for a given purpose. And this
group hasn’t gathered to watch something, like a show or a sporting event. This
group has gathered to do something together. It is not an audience; it is a
flash mob.
But unlike a flash mob, this worshiping group is not
performing for other people. This group has the ridiculous notion that the audience
for their performance is none other than the Creator of the cosmos. The groups
actions are oriented toward God – the prayers, the singing, the praises are
offered together to the One who formed life itself and exists beyond any human
concept of time and space.
See what I mean? Ridiculous!
If you actually believe in a divine presence that knows all
and sees all and is everywhere all the time, why in the world would One like
that be listening in as your tiny collection of mortals stumbled through your
rendition of “Amazing Grace?” As if your particular version of that song is any
different from any of the other forty-seven thousand versions of it God hears
on any given Sunday.
Whey would that all-powerful One who carves mountains and
breathes gale force winds be watching your little puny arms lifting your inconsequential
hands up in surrender? Why in God’s green earth would the Supreme Sovereign
Force of the Universe think your organist’s prelude was worth anything or your
on-screen announcements were especially meaningful or your little bite of bread
and sip of juice had any power in it whatsoever or those people who came
forward for prayer would get theirs answered because they were just that much
closer or … ?
It’s actually quite ridiculous, when you really think about
it.
It is ridiculous. And miraculous. And amazing and meaningful
and transformative. In fact, worship is the single most significant event in the life of
a local congregation.
The worship service forms the identity of the people by
reminding us of who God is and who God wants us to be. You, as a member of the
community, are a part of something that is greater than you, and greater than
the sum of its parts. You dare to say out loud, “We are here! We are one! And
the Spirit that unites us as one is here with us, all around us, all over us;
we are in that Spirit’s midst.”
And not only you in that little place and time; you are a
part of everyone else who is gathering in their own places and times for the
purpose of worship, too. Wherever, whenever, however – you are one with the
Body of Christ in all of its infuriatingly diverse incarnations.
To intentionally gather together in community, plan it, prepare
for it, adjust your schedule for it, show up and engage it, not just watch it
happen but be a part of it, and actually entertain the absurd notion that God
is there with you, to remember who God is and then dare to say it out loud, to
remember who God has called you to be and confess that you aren’t yet, and then
to leave that place different than you were when you got there, hopeful,
energized, ready … this is worship.
It’s pretty ridiculous, really. And I don’t know about you,
but I for one am going to continue to be ridiculous as I worship God with every
last breath I have in my body.
